Dear god..todae suppose to wake up ltr caz ytd slept at 4 plus... den my manager frm city link call me work den gt sms... den i dun off hp den disturb onli...haha well...4 plus my bro haven t cum hm wad can i sae...todae suppose to eat dinner wif my family... den my father suggested to call my bro gf... den i strongly object his idea... but he bring it up to my bro.. den ask me if kor gf can cum den i sae tat u sae family leh... den i told my father n kor den even if the gf dun cum he after dinner still go out.. wad can i can.. den kor nt happi lor... den he went back to lie on his bed.. den my mum awhile ltr ask him u dun wan 2 go arh.. den he sae sth like *i dun feel like goin but can dun go meh* tat kind ... den i ask my mum wad he sae... den i told my mum in my room tat.. he dun wan 2 go can dun go ma.. wan den cum back home stay dun wan den go out... call him eat dinner like so hard.. den he heard den he shout wan 2 tok dun tok at ppl back.. den i shout back .. i where gt tok at ppl back u can cum listen wad... den he sae u cum la... den i sae u cum la.. den my father call me to stop den we stop le... i super super nt happi wif him.. den my da ge ltr join us... den after tat my father told me tat i should encourage him and nt being so changlleging den like scold him den after tat... i sae sorry to my bro.. and tell him hw i felt.. but.. he still.. like need time to think..do u know he told me tis for like 3 4 times last week till nw... i ask him u nw leading tis kind of life good arh.. he sae ok ok lor...den after dinner he go meet his gf.. haiz.. so no life lor.. i realli dun understand.. is like being tie down... some more he nt doin well in his spritual life lor.. haiz..... hw can i help him...my father call him to be back before 12 nw wad time... still haven t see his face....

Looking at a room tat fills with memories sorrows and emptiness...always thought tat it was lively and warmth... but it will still be a day when it will be emptiness......


it do hurts me dad n mum... dun they realise that ... y didn t dey obey... fell in to a hole dat is so so deep .. i dun wan 2 cry.. i wan 2 be strong.. but ... how long can i stay... the room has been empty for 4 days... as i sae.. i hardly see them... even gt but is less den 4 hours... god wad should i do... lead us to a path dat we can help our loved one......