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Sunday, December 31, 2006

Dear god... abt 24 more hours or so.. goin to 2007... haha... tml gonna tok 2 jess... i wan 2 be resolved before 2007.... i wan 2 start a new yr...=) after tml.. i wan 2 be stronger... in faith.. and everything... ha god.. i realli love u.. and there is realli nth could make me fall away... i realli dun wan 2 lose u.. lose ur love for me.. lose the frens that u have given me.. frens tat are always there... frens tat i could count on them.. and rely them... lose my family tat u hab mould them... even me..=)i dun wan... without u... i think my life will be lifeless... aimless.. onli will think relationships... money....jobs... =)
2morrow.. =) thanx

Friday, December 29, 2006

we planned as one...
Retro ppl...on 22 dec... christmas party

Dearest heavenly father... i m so troubled ... everythings seems unresolved..my results.. frenships.. family... my part time jobs... everything...

i hab check my results... previous ses gp 3.0 this ses gp 3.3 i dunno the total.. i dunno where to go.. where should i go... i can appeal... but my chance are slim... i wan 2 go simei for higher nitec.. but is 3.6 and above... republic poly.. 3.5 onli bishan... 2.8.. but god.. i dun wan..if private.. 12 thousand dollar for 3 yr of the course i wan... i dunno... i feel lost... i tot results can lighten my burden... but it can t .... how to rely everything to god... i dun hab an ans...

everything seems missing .... everythings juz fell apart... everythings juz could not matched... i tot ytd the tok wif jess would helped me... but... i dunno wad m i troubling... like everything i told her didn t solved... i dunno would i be able to forgive.. ppl whom are dearest to me... ppl that i cared alot... ppl that realli breaks my heart..

sometime... i felt lousy as a sister.. lousy as a fren... lousy as a daughter.. is not the pressure.. nor stress.. i realli dunno.. i can t even sort out my feeling... bit and pieces... that form my agony..

search my heart.. is indeed painful.. that juz make me wan to avoid it... pray to him... i should... not todae...den when...

maybe tomorrow.. it will be solved..

m i ready to face everything tat troubled me.. able to take the battle wif god...

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Dearest god... todae lol... miss potato.. did nth todae.. do a christmas card for the old folks lol... do veri long.. caz think think think... den can t find super glue den end up take elephant glue den stick at hand... wa... e....lol... todae.. didn t do much.. ytd.. yay.. well.. sick ytd.. i ate smelly tofu midnight den bloated den voimit.. den morning.. fever.. den todae.. ok le. lol.. cool kk..

Sunday, December 10, 2006

wa... so nice... garden city... appearance wasn t the factor...
o brothers... love them all...
thinking... how to open our first prize award.. lol.. we won first prize.. flin stone we the fin stone

yay.. finally can open... happy wor

guys.. a toast for our victory...

not drunk.. lol.. not drunk.. pls la... lol.. grape juice yummy.. martin n me
first prize group... lol.. and rock it idols too.. lol
me and little alicia..

their group.. noah ar ki lo le gist.. some kind of stone.. that got BOMBA..
grace arh grace.. forever adorable

Dearest god... =) todae my second bro kind of pass out awhile.. caz he stomach pain.. den my father grab him tightly.. . anway.. went church.. caroling... dunno i can make it... den ya.. i saw the look on his face... the different side of him i should sae... i believe he didn t means it.. but... i simply juz mad at him.. but it was over.. when the look on his face.. a kind of look dat make me humble my self down... a veri lonely side of him... a veri... hmm.. juz different.. he is juz like us.. but i believe not everyone willing to go near him...becaz he is hmm... i dunno...well... as i tot everything was back to normal ... but sth struck me.. my heart... alittle piece of it was missing.. i realise.. is not juz a piece.. but the fren ship i hab.... i find it missing... for quite some time.. ever since that matter was blown up.. well.. is my pride that stop me frm searching for them.. wanting to knw the latest news.. or rather gossips.. i find it hard to humble myself in... i means i realli knw is my fault for messing the little event.. i means i tried to hold my tears back.. but it juz flowing.. the feelin was horrible.. and i was realli hurt inside.. realli ... i guess a memory for me.. lol.. and them... so so hard to tok 2 them like i used to... if i met them on the street.. how m i suppose to react to them.. i realli dunno.. everything seems so fast... yet the pain remains.. i felt abandoned for the first time... and like being left alone.. to make my way homee.. the feelin wasn t the best.....i means ... my attitude isn t rite ... everything wasn t in planned.. everything was over.. and i dun wan 2 look back.. frens are important.. but if memories... of that.. all i can .. is to put in some where... unable me to recalled..... can t believe that i still rack up the past..=)

played pool wif teens.. lol.. sonia gonna miss u... go us 3 weeks.. well... juz go there w/0 worries...

jasmine arh jasmine.. go japan arh.. lol enjoy ok... there can see cannot buy.. lol..

jess mike kor kor peiling jie jie uncle danny... go thailand.. lol.. reach liao.. shopping finish liao.. lo.l.. enjoy....

Saturday, December 09, 2006

brenda jordon and nichola.. lol.. so cute....

sera and me.. i luv her lol

jordon and me.. kenny roger... look.. the chicken

still can t do uncle trick.. he is good at doin trick on rope.. ha. the rest wan 2 learn

shawn seet.. stop lol.. u can do his trick... two uncle.. different character.. different kind different style full of colours...

me my husband.. and addis.. lol.. goodness.. so adorable.. haiz.. i miss uncle..

Brenda and me.. my room mate... lol.. ilove her

my husband.. uncle.. the goin to 100 yrs old. lol.. so trendy.. he is so adorable..

me n sil... to AFAMOSA... i luv her

ej.... so child like... NEXT.. lol

a child- like side of ben lol.. den a black black thing at the side.. addis lol

me and jac... i luv her

Dearest god... i realli miss retreats... to cast our burdens away.. not thinking of the past.. and to be recharged... spiritually.. i love teens.. love them alots... well.. though i feel sorry for him... not able to think in a bigger picture... juz thinking of himself... that lead himself fallin away.. i realli wan 2 love him.. and to speak the truth wif love... well.. tis is wad i realli have to buck up.. realli hab to learn... ytd was a rough dae to pass.. i realli hab to learn.. the fact that everyone is different... and i have to love them for who they are.. all this are pullin me back..

wake up... didn t noe what to do.. staring at the celling... spacing out... thinking wad is next... well.. washing clothing.. hanging clothing.. and playing audition C.. lol.. rite.. night came... abt to leave home.. realise tat my filp flop that i wore earlier on to hang clothes was missing... i search and search lol.. my filp flop realli gone.. who took it.. why my slipper... the 6.90 flip flop.. lol.. of all slippers... of all 19 storys x 6 units.. y mine.. lol... weird... wa.. realise that my slippers getting realli limited... 2 mphosis slipper broke.. spoil.. 1 stolen.... wa... .. so weird.. lol.. i think my feet is growing.. RiTe.. haha

kor kor.. i love you both... realli sorry... though times i realli like some aunty nagging... lol... i love u guys still....

we went old folks home.. shawn poh uncle.. *cute* ... and addis kissing

nichola erin me fiona two uncle.. the yellow shirt wan.. lol.. i n addis take care.. he so adorable.. so nice goin 2 be 100 years old liao

teens workers.. buying stuff for the old folks ppl...

me jac and fiona... after AFAMOSA water world..bus cool

inside the bus... grace.. kl church.. she is so cute..

c.. i told u they love each others alot... lol augustine and ej..

the teens... from all over malaysia.. and us.. singapore teens sisters

me... and slides..

see saw... cool.. fun.. memories... of augustine falline.. becaz of me.. lol.. sorry..

my goodness... look .. the creation frm god... beautiful..

u see.. the building look like this.. lol..but inside is nice.. realli

shawn seet... why.. lol.. forfeit... now u have to act cute...

me n gwen.. first dae... singapore.. leaving ..to malaysia
more... tomorrow..

Dearest heavenly father... first of all... i love u god.. and yes.. we are back from malacca retreats... though we still think we still having retreats.. often go out.. together.. so cooll.... i realli learn alot... though many conflicts... that wasn t suppose to be involved... lol..go to this... Garden city... apartment.. wa.. veri nice... veri big.. outside seems so run down.. but the room and so on... so nice... den down stair gt swimming pool.. den we go down stair for games... my team is Flinstone... yes.. we won first prize... lol... ok.. den we play some games... den read some twister .. still need to eat 3 cracker... . so hard... haha.. den water games.. at the pool.. lol.. dog and bones.. so cool haha.. den marbles and lol... stress ball.. floating hab to take.. so fun... den rehersal for our yr end skit... den play some games.. den gt lesson... den next dae... so surprise... that the brothers wake up the earliest and the fastest.. wad to do.. gt breadfast.. lol... den youhoo... AFAMOSA.. water world..den near by gt elephant... baby elephant..like.. hmm... take photo wif them for 12 rm that kind.. den gt big tiger oso.. den ah meng... lol.. den we played family slide.. lol.. so fun.. i like lol.. fast fast.. den the uncle/big brother sae u wan fast.. den run and push lol.. den sit wif me fiona hmm... yan nee.. nichola and hmm me.. lol.. so fun.. den he control the float.. den we realli fly.. lol... so hyper fun haha.. den we oso play the.. veri veri veri thrilling slide.. alone wan.. den wa... i try two different wan.. the first one.. veri pain lol.. 2 hump... hit my butt and head.. till next dae headache.. but not so scary as the second one.. wif the blue tube.. wa.. lol.. smooth and fast.. lol.. can t believe that i go the slide... lol.. so cool... den at lazy pool wif shawn poh and jacinda.. and u knw wad.. shawn poh fav kingdom song is rejoice.. rejoice.. lol.. den we sing some kingdom song... and sort of follow the pattern on the lazy pool.. den bathe den head to can t remember.. lol.. den hab fun jiu dui le.. ai yo.. a point of time.. realli hope that is onli singapore teens go.. caz many conflicts.. between the fact of the brothers wif the sis in kl .. well... heng is resolve.. haiz.. den indirectly can t resolve myself wif erica.. juz can t bring myself to .. wel.. realli reach out to her... i mean i will yay.. retreat i simply love it...
so recharged.. after this retreat... yes.. we realli bond... and yes.. ROCK IT..

i will resolve myself.. juz can t bring myself to forgive ppl ... so hard... so hard...

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