Dearest god... todae went for bible talk.. at east coast... so happi finish attachment liao.. well.. tml church but still need to work mphosis caz maggi jie she on leave.. cousin cannot pah seh her lol.. cool... haha... todae our bible tok go east coast.. den rollar blades.. lol.. so nice.. so many ppl .. den i ask the brothers teach me to brake.. lol.. the t brake.. lol. very funny.. den we played catching blading... den the sisters as usual veri united.. lol.. cooool... den went back .. veri veri long... den came home eat den watch tv.. ... cool.. lol...

haiz.. my brother as usual... my dad gave my mum card to them because they sae they no money.. den they went clubbing.. den todae morning den cum hm den nvm.. some more call my fahter to fetch... den they call me ask me where daddy den i sae y.. den he sae WHERE IS DADDY.... haiz.. y everytime i tell them abt all tis stuff.. money issue and so on.. they never understand or realli wan 2 hear wan... i always thoughts twin brothers are always a blessing....but... is it... is it realli true... got this kind of brothers... haiz.. as their sister i felt really lousy....

Dearest god... LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT IN GUARDIAN.. ha.. actually is tml.. but have to do some project abt guardian tml.. so is outdoor wan.. den didn t work guardian liao..den todae lack of communication den noor late den keys at lockers.. den nadia oso keys at lockers.. den auntie anne on leave go leaon house take key.. den shop suppose to open at 830.. den todae open 10 plus... lo...den took some photos... .. good is no need to work liao.. bad is.. going to miss all the promoters aunties.. more.... haha..so many things to do.. haha... but happi den promoters aunties buys chocolates den some gif their stuff to me.. lol.. so touched.. lol.. den will visit them again.. i wan 2 make cookies for them.. soon... will miss them lor.. den i knw some of the hospital ppl den oso miss.. den todae i tell canteen auntie todae last dae.. den she gif me extra meat lol.. lol.. den i oso knw all the uncles maintance wan... den so ccute.. den i shake hand wif them.. lol.. they so nice.. haha.. i always eat alot wan... haha.. my rice is like mountain lol.. den ytd went for last briefing of guardian... den tok some stuff.. den me n farah go ikea find gx.. den he hair long liao.. but xiao qi still thinks gx fat liao.. lol.. den so happi presentation and report finish haha... cool... i love guardian... promoters... lol... and staff of course....ytd the ytd i think.. nadia cousin also work our shop.. den she never eat.. faint at shop when working.. den wa.. shocked us.. den i frm cashier serve customer half way run to her.. den call her still didn t wake up.. she took veri long to wake up.. her hands cold... den so scary... den promoters aunties all put oil call her name.. tap her face.. oso no response.. den mount e doc cum check her.. den do sth to her eyes.. den she blink blink den tear cum out.. den nadia cry den pomoters auniter some cry.. den bring her to hospital... den lack of staff.. caz nadia follow her cousin.. lol..

den she alrite nw..

vivo city is so so big..





Dearest god... todae went to work as usual... but... ytd slepp early todae.. still feel like sleeping.. mrt wif bro.. den when my stop reach the door open den i realise is my stop after i was like half awake.. den i took city hall train to orchard oso sleep.. den tis time the speaker gt problem den can t hear.. den i sleep i wake up .. den i run cum out... caz the door goin 2 close soon lol..den gt that... sleepy face.. den towrd my work place den lol.. got one MONK appoarch me.. he hand me a card tat is veri gold.. den gt one curl hair guy sititng on the flower... den i abit blurr at that time.. den wanted to take.. den i look closer .. den i sae dunwan thank you... he is so humble.. lol..weird things happen to me.. always gt stranger tok 2 me.. lol.. either donate money survey or gif some free stuff.. lol ytd gt evangelise... den i waited for quite long caz i was too early.. den gt one man.. ask me to donate.. wad.. the students can t pay their books.. den tok to me.. den donate den he self intro himself.. sae wad he is a christian.. den i like. wao.. so nice.. den he tok ad tok.. den i oso intro myself den he sae sth tat make me.. like.. he sae he is a special christian caz we dun take joss sticks tp other idols but he sae he do... caz he pay respects.. but... the bible clearly stated not tok workship on idols but workship on god onli... den he oso sae.. but he dun give offering like duck pig to the chinese god caz he sae.. jesus sae before tat.. he open the door for us.. and will gif us eat... not we gif him eat food... tat kind.. den i like... heh... den one of the student oso apporach me.. den i tot they all christian lol.. den i i donante to them.. total waste 4 dollars... ltr... meet the sis.. then we saw them smoking.... one is the boss.. which tok to me.. smoke.. den the girls student smoke.. like wAd... smoking is like so wrong la.. den i like quite pissed... den realli feel like asking them 2 return and stop cheating money... den they wear oso like short skirt.. all so young...

den todae do alot of things... but still caz do much of cashiering.. should be good oso... caz won t handle money... doesn t matter... i not intending to stay after my attachment.. i means i understand they lack of staff.. but NO... i dun wan... is realli tough... den thro rubbish.. like cartons all those.. caz alot.. good.. can waste time.. den no need all the time stay in guardian.. den delivery uncle help me.. caz alot.. den i can t c caz the carton they stack too high.. den i hold here hole there.. den all the delivery uncle oso quite funny... they will help wan.. so nice...

but after that... late afternoon.. gt more delivery den alot alot of carton that kind i not veri sure.. den the delivery man gif attitude... den i juz sae i dunno.. den he like not happi... den wa.. i means i realli not sure wad.. den nadiah sae teach me.. den i like.. juz walk2 the cashier.. gt nadiah cousin oso work.. den quite new in cashiering.. den i juz stand there.. i means nadia wan 2 teach but is juz tat i dunno.. not in my best of mood... cashier dun allow me do cashiering.. den like.. suddenly felt so pissed wif alot of thing.. den like eh some promoter auntie y so rude to me... den quite upsets lor.. den realli affects my moods. den veri funny.. gt one devlivery malay man he lol... i oso there so like not happi... den he walk den scare me.. boo me.. den i like lol.. den he sae alot of stocks arh.. den i sae ya lor... c behind so many cartons.. den he sae dun stress ur self chey.. lol. this is wad he sae... some time.. delivery ppl quite funny.. they happi den tok so nice.. not happi den realli not happi lor.. lol... is oso veri hard for me to maintain my attitude... lol but after tat i felt better den dun wan to tok so much den faster do my part can le.. lol..


k amen





Dearest god work work work.. heng it end like tis month... dunno if i still wan 2 work in m phosis.. or another shop ... i m so scared of commitment in work... wad oso cannot... ... my pay haiz.. fridae or later.. wel... ok lor... they help me save... so so tired... work. work work.. dun wish to go out... ahahha... todae... battery the charger drop on my head... my manager luff sum more... pain lor... lol.. den stocks cum.. wa... so many... den like.. so so ming xian tat some body told the staff not to let me to cashier.. * they dun trust me*.. so many customer.. like sunami so so long.. den wan 2 help.. cashier sae is ok ... promoters aunties called me to help.. caz alot of customer.. go until there cannot.. onli nadia let me do.. this rest... if realli realli realli bo bian den i can do...i make mistake before tat does not means i will wad... so not fair... other cashier oso make mistake.. but still can do.. i make den cannot.. i seriously dun unerstand y... but never mind.. good oso.. left a few more weeks.. den got one time.. a mother n a young boi called me auntie.. lol... i will never forget.. AUNTIE leh.. wa... in my mind. call jie jie ma.. auntie.. wa... sad la... lol.* hiding in the corner crying.. lol...* den nw a dae.. i veri naughty wif all my aunties promoters.. lol.. lol.. they disturb me. i disturb them.. lol.. den Vincy auntie promoter and Roc promoters are all christian in different church.. den they wan 2 prayed... den i oso join in... den so funny.. prayed during peak hours cum more.. like juz stand den hold on to each other hand.. den Roc auntie promoter start praying... den we eng off wif a HUGE AMEN.. lol.. so encouraged...


family will not have more den 1 night of cold wars....

so funny.. i n kor go mrt go work ma.. den cannot sleep porperly in mrt.. so i lie on his shoulder.. den.. realise his shoulder getting lower and lower... den i tot my head heavy.. den i wake up he sae i veri short.. which means all the while he lower down his shoulder to make me feel comfortable lol.. but no lor.. he lower i more hard.. it means i not as short as he thinks lol.. youwoo... todae make ice cream for daddy n kor kor.. always sae they fat.. lol. but i gif him eat.. lol.. forgive me oh daddy n kor kor.. for ur sis have no idea haha...





Dearest god...ytd.. hab a tiff wif my brothers.. wel.. is always me tat started it... caz maybe i always feel tat he didn t change... he kept doin the same things tat realli veri .. den always so rude to my parents... pls la.. they dun owe them a living... working.. gt money = to no money... gt go work = to no go work... still gt the cheek to take frm them.. grow up man... 23 already.. still like tat... everytime do as and when they like... demand this and tat... my parents so so kelian lor.. but ytd was indeed my fault.. i means i should not yell at them.. some more infront of my parents.. c arh.. my da ge he go spend time wif the brothers.. i think he no money.. den cum home didn t eat ... den never sae.. den my second bro wan 2 go out.. abt 10 plus.. den my dad n mum sae better dun.. den he not happi.. gif all those attitude... den daddy n mummy brought food for me n my second bro.. den da ge cum back sae never eat... den i sae.. so pissed off... u never eat.. i like.. y so concern abt him.. hungry.. den end up share food wif us.. den i like.. no money den dunno how to sae... den daddy mummy can buy.. den he like.. not happi.. pls lor.. if u wan face... den earn some money... dun spend ur daily working money... juz dun understand them.. when den mummy n daddy can relax.. dun stress abt them... i mean i also gt my flaws ... haiz.... todae work.. den nadiah cousin oso work... cool... den now i never touch cashier le... i think they dun trust attachment student liao.. den ya lor...k lor..



amen...






Dearest god.... has been like a few daes since i write... "stop clinging to the world" said the worldly wan... fashion fashion fashion.. .. bleahx... wadever.. wel.. working gaining point for attachment... well.. juz can t wait to step out of guardian... my pay had yet to cum... ahh... so troubled...i wan 2 buy clothing.... so fun.. retreats is cummin and i juz can t wait...

well.. .. i juz simply wan an answer for everything...

so mani things to think ...


is everything fallin apart.... or i m just thinking too much...

i wan 2 go back to skool.. where i suppose to be....

goin 2 church strengthen me...but... how long can i last if i kept being like tat...




A wedding... on sundae...


so formal.... my cousins.... above and below...top sweet 13 bottom... we are both same age.. lol no age gaps.. cool.. he oso played rf... yay.. ian.. i still better den u.. lol..


Dearest god.. ha... todae... work at 10.. den my father call me up at 6.. lol den sae sorry lol.. den went work.. den nowadae i alwyas eat alot of rubbish.. lol.. morning.. eat bread wif ham or no time den eat abt 5 puff... den i todae eat bread den eat merci chocolate.. lol.. sure fat.. make sure is body not face.. lol.. i wan 2 dye back my hair colour.. getting lighter and uglier.. my pay hab not yet be taken no wonder.. i m so broke.. den work work.. den manager sae i need to go their training.. abt slim pdt.. lol.. den ok lor.. den wait till 2.. den gt tis customer.. like frm hong kong wan.. veri bad... he bought this sponge den wan 2 exchange.. den no receipt den dunno where n when he buy.. den he veri bad.. he tell my incharge sae he wan our name card.. den she tot he wan 2 complain our staff.. den juz let him exchange.. den after tat my in charge open .. den inside the sponge black black.. itmeans he use before den wan 2 change... so evil.. so bad...den heng is 1.95.. but my in charge sae shes scared he go our store den use before demand a exchange.. realli hope he won t.. so bad... den after tat went to seng kang cc there... tot i late.. but no still veri early.. den should work till 6.. but go training den finish abt 4 plus plus.. den tok abt many slim pdt...so need any help for this stuff.. tell me... lol.. dedox oso man.. lol.. so fun lor. although i was alone.. but i think is still ok.. actually not alone at all.. i still hab god sitting beside me through out the talks.. lol.. den gt gif us some nice small stuff and Trim Slim Advance pills... lol... so funny.. i was like.. so cool yet... for me??? lol.. well i c lor.. gif my bro of father.. tis pills realli good... got 12 herbs in side... they explain in details so that we can convey to customers.. cool... den after the tok gt refreshment den lol.. so many ppl take.. den i take a dunno wad tiny tart.. lol.. taste so nice.. den head home.. btw seng kang the cc.. gt basketball court.. and is indoor.. so cool... 4 level.. den gt tis little boi so cute.. juz ask me in the lift basket ball court 3 level is it.. i like.. should be.. den he check i wait for him.. den press fourth den he look den sae correct.. den sae thanx q.. so cute... lol...caz he press third floor.. den ask me basketball court is wad level.. i saw him taking the ball and pressing third level.. den i sae should be third. lol i myself oso not sure.. lol..


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