Monday, July 30, 2007
Dearest father
i prayed eveything will be over...
is not planned,
is not expected,
nor wanted...
i prayed for her... to be strong ... as strong as she could.. for she hab to face many trials... and being scold.. insults...
i won t forsake you.. nor leave u...for the very first time i get to know u.. is never in my mind to leave you for such problem...
all this is not their fault... is satan fault... letting them fall in his trap..
i dislike satan... no.. I HAtE satan...
i prayed for him.. to be well... for i know this few days will be tough...
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Dearest heavenly father...
It has been a donkey years since i last post... ha... well.. truly happy for jasmine.. asking me to pray wif her on the phone ytd.. warmth my heart... pretty tired ytd wif rushing my project about church... realli veri moved and touched ... the church.. the sisters.. the brothers... i wonder how is the 23 korean christian.... y... wad nonsense... y catch them away... and y set a time of 1030 den start killing... y hurt ppl like them.... y kill for no reason... y harm my brothers and sisters...i dunno wad is happening now.. i realli dun...all i can do is pray.... juz pray
Today Sharon did it again... Sharon is rude to Ms Kua/Quek/Key/Kay.. i dunno.. she is juz a co teacher in OFA... Ms Choo didn t come today as she was sick... despite of being late for almost 10 mins she didn t apologise and flash some ans about ytd assignment ... speaking so soft as usual.. sitting infront of her ... Sharon can t hear anything.. near the end of lesson.. Sharon out of curiousity .. ask her why she didn t teach us.. because.. before that she say nobody is doing but the fact is some are doing OFA project and she say they can... Ms Kua/Queck/Key/Kay sae she is juz Co juz helping out.. she claim Ms choo is the main teacher... ** so... all this is not her job??** den Licia told her that she is not helping Ms Choo... Of course... Ms Kua/Quek/Key/Kay defend herself.. den she tell Sharon she is veri hmm.. vocal... ya.. den Sharon sae PIE teacher sae must earn respect... but she did not... den the co teacher sae she DON T NEED OUR RESPECT... oo.. and she kept saying Sharon is veri rude... but she also sae that she DON NEED HER RESPECT... hmm.... den she sae this... dun think u QUEEN...* hahaa sharon giggled* den she sae nor her... den she sae SMACK YOU .. SO RUDE...
haha.. the teacher like not happi wif me but not licia.. haha.. sinling sae wad ever licia sae... that teacher thought is me.. haha.. doesn t matter.... den licia and me went out of class start laughing... she is so cute... and funny.. ok right.. i m suppose to be angry.. haha.. but she is juz too.. haha.. like i quarrel wif 14 year old girl...lol.. but the fact is upside down.. 41..
seriously i was pretty upset of myself... and yes i felt bad.. .. when she sae smack me ... i already felt bad... so i kept quiet...satan went into my heart and tempted me... i gave in and felt bad later... wad is this....
well hope my project can faster finish..
this daddy of mine... wan to change a car.. to 7 seater wan.. they went to c car show... and because of my project i stayed at home... haiz... i hope they choose properly..
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Dearest father... to adjust my time in skool dun hab the heart to study.. but i hope is onli for short period of time.. she came.. find is realli hard to tok 2 her... den she ask us.. wad he say.. and claim she dun know anything... i dunno wad 2 sae.. either blaming others or.. i dunno... as our new P.I.E teacher sae.. earn to gain respect... obviously.. she didn t .... got the look.. can help her for how long...wad is the use... everythings seems so messed up.. lying her way through... lie and cover lie and cover... den todae didn t realli tok much... den todae rehersal den he come again..he scared we bully her.. if that is the case den in the first place never think... tok 2 us like tat... some more dare to ask us to use our brain... 2 years in skool leh.. c wad kind of problem u gif to ur beloved girl.. u create the problem... u find a way to seal in... not ur problem keep taking ur finger to poke...
Is hard to be alone.. is hard to face the world by myself... is hard to keep ppl ugly lies... is hard knowing the fact yet trying to kick away... is hard to be stumbled some time... i feel like... i m fighting alone.. fighting wif this evil ura alone.... i hab god wif me... but... wad abt christians...facing skool everytime.. can be realli tiring some time.. is tough for me..
Monday, July 09, 2007
Dearest Father...
today.. reopening of skool... i fear temptation.. being not righteous... but todae was still ok.. end at 11.. because mr aw didn t come.. i think is operation or wad ..
i thank god for my life.. god... sundae service was impacting... in fact all sermon of fridae services are impacting... u are juz... big.... HUGE...i tot earth was the biggest in the whole universe.. but i was wrong... i tot jupiter.. but i was wrong... i tot the sun was the biggest... i was wrong... but i know...so far...Antanes/antares.. is the biggest... is some big... big big big big big sth... looks like a sun... is realli huge... den when i think abt u.. i wonder... if all this planet were big... huge... wad abt u... WoAh.. i was realli amazed abt ur creation....god.. singing kingdom songs is one of the great comfort... that i truly seek when i nid u... and god..
u... a chirstian... y .. wad are u doing... it sounded like a split image to me... who r u.. why..deceive everyone around u.. why even tell the ppl that haven t baptized ur horrible lies... ur craps... and claim i like tokking to open minded... u r so scary ..i wan 2 slap u is it right.. to keep ur horrible lies.. so that it will not spoil the frenships u hab in church... i realli hope that i didn t listen u.. so that i will not keep thinking abt such nonsense... but i can t ...u.. look righteous.. looks like everything was fine... was great.. get all emo wif many things... yet... i dunno.. can i still love u in chirst like i do before...
i realli pray for zhi zhong... he is truly a great brother that filled with humours.. i realli prayed for him.. trying to be righteous among his frens... yes.. indeed is not easy.. yet...i know he never gives up..he wan 2 love everyone the same.. and i believe he can... god.. i oso pray for uncle richard mum... fighting against cancer... though she onli hab a dae or maybe few hours to live.. but god.. i pray that u will gif great comfort to the family... and surely.. i know the brothers and sisters will be there.. encouraging them...
god.. i oso pray for david... my awesome brother david... fighting for cancer... yet still hab to go op i will never ever understand his pain... but i know u do.. i pray that u be there for him....
i oso pray for jasmine... family problem always come and go... and yes god.. she is struggling .. but i know she will able to go through such harsh remarks and being nagged... god... pls be wif her always.. allowing her to know and to always make a stand to her frens... yes god... is not easy.. but i know wif her faith.. is possible...
i pray for my both brothers... i pray that my brothers will realise that their life is realli messed up ... that bills that help his frens ... dat owe my family so so much money... and end up still hab to borrow frm my grand mum.. in order not to charge both my brothers to court for signing up under the name as my brother fren on hp bills... that come out many red letters... some time god.. i juz dun understand.. y they wan 2 created their problem to ours.. making my parents to suffering... and even themselves... god.. i realli hope one dae.. they will come to understand that they are being too imature...
y... y... i feel sorry for u... i take pity on u... wif a good look yet inside is like an fuji apple.. bright and red already rotting... wif fat worms... why are u lying to us... y... wad is the motive for all this... y use such an attitude to tok 2 us... y r u guys being so selfish.. hurting us juz like tat... why...u ... u....both of u...are u testing me... u both... are the joke... go away....
Saturday, July 07, 2007
old hair style..
new hairstyle
Dearest father... todae is my last dae in edu care.. gonna miss all of them.. though sometime realli cannot stand their whining.. and their rough action on me.. still haha... little girls r strong too.. they can pull u and make u fall.. haha.. this is scary..and pain.. so.. end of taking care/teaching them.. and almost everydae gif them things to eat.. ai yo.. den still scold me wan.. naughty like mad.. but still.. cute.. and lovable...
didi (cousin)
mei mei (cousin)
Playing hide and seek.. my BFD book.. ha
naughty fellow Jacky
Nicnic and didi
sometime indeed is hard to love somebody... ya.. realli so hard...u make me.. realli hard to love u.... wad kind of example are u setting to the ppl... wad is ur purpose and motives to come to church..u claim u love god.. but how much..r u putting god ahead... or some where in the middle.. do u love god like water flowing from the cup.. or some where in the middle...sometime.. u make me...be criticial in u...stop that nonsense.. i myself sturggling too.. i m trying to stop.. y can t u.. don t u know that ur teen worker love u alot... ALOT... y r u being so imature... u r lying ur way through..others are trying to keep that frenship.. but y are u doin it ur own way and not wad the bible is telling u... i can assure you that ur life is pretty mess up... cling in between the world and god... i dun deny that i m not.. because i m in the stituation ... i fighting back y not u... when u sae jesus is my lord and accept him ...is it juz a joke.... well.. let me tell u.... YoU aRe the JokE...dun drag others...
frm left gek ching. jacky .ben yeo. nicnic.gek chin.hong kai.johnathan
love this pic alot so cute (above)
wadever it is.. i dun fell encouraged at all... when we quote the teens is in the mess... well.. i think is onli the few... i will settle my own conviction..and huant them down... 1 down... 3 to go...
Snap Shot..
ha
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Dearest Father... i Crave for white baby bunny... i wan 2 take care sth... like.. some living thing... i think of white baby bunny... the biggest eyes that i always wanted... the fur is ever so white.. juz like cotton... and the smallest mouth that make the bunny look so perfect.. *melt*..
haah... as usual.. went to the House Of Kids the edu care.. to take care/ teach the kids... ok.. i dozed off when i teach didi and mei mei.. lol... dey so... cute... lol.. kawaii... is like both cousin always stick like super glue... lol... one sleep.. the other oso.. aiyo.. 3 /4 years old ai yo.. so cute.. melt*
the kids... veri cute... like little boys... voice haven t break.. lol.. den whine is super ultra high pitch... lol.. den the girls... ok la... naughty oso.. but... still will quiet not like little boys.. aiyo..
Father... i thank u for the day... realli trying to be contented with wad i have...i praise u for being such an awesome god... people always trying to go to a place.. where they can find miracles... but... they didn t realise that.. when they change for u when they get to know about the bible of the rights and wrong... to honour you.. their parents.. to love everyone to treat fairly.. to not be insecure... that is the biggest miracles ever... father... i prayed for our brother david... cancer is wad he have.. and wad he hab to lived... yet.. still always contented... i pray that he can be heal.. allowing the doctors to do wad they realli can.. to heal him... amen
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Dearest father... family.. problems.. 1 after another... wad can i do.. to contribute to the family... money is the root of the problem...eddie... for once i pity u....harming urself like that... creating problems for my brother... and my brothers believe u and take pity on u lending u money... well.. my brothers no money still put their name on ur bills.. end up creating problems for urself...and for my family... and my ah ma oso kana.... haiz.. wad a long story dat i should not go on anymore....u are an.... haiz.. idoit.. when will all this stop...
Dearest god.. i pray for strength... i pray for alittle faith... i pray for wisdom... i prayed that i could do sth...lighten the burden....i prayed to love ppl as myself.. i pray to forgive others ..i pray that the sisters will do well in their mid year exam i prayed for silvia to be ready to face wadever kind of results.. i pray for fiona to be focus and knowing u will be there that she will not be afraid.. i pray for jacinda.. to be fearless because u are there.. and to be wif her... to comfort her..
i pray for zhi zhong to love other because they are different from us..i pray for mark foo to mixed wif the right people.. i pray to reach out to him.. not to despise him but..encourage him often... i pray for my family.. i pray for daddy... to be strong..to hab the strength to handle the family... i pray for mommy to be strong always... taking a heavy burden when either family members unhappy.. my mum = vending machine always there.. to tolerate us... i pray for teens brothers... to be themselves to lead to come for the right motive.. .. i pray for the sisters to be strong..i thank them for searching me knowing that i m not alright.... to console me.. to look after each other... i love all of them...
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