Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Some Ultra Random Pictures totally don t make sense to my post....
DAVID- My Beloved (in Hebrews)
I thought Saturday morning was just my usual day... waking up... getting ready for work... but.. it wasn t the same for this Saturday...morning message do pissed me off sometime.. but not this time... i checked my phone.. and it was Peiling jie jie...God bring David to heaven... away from needles.. away from aches.. away from tears of loved ones... away for temptations to give up.. away from not eating a proper meal.. away from coughing so badly.. away from not able to speak in full sentences...everything feels weird... felt burdened... my manager ask me are you close to him.. if you are not.. better don t go...
i seriously don t understand what are they actually meant..to them.. if you not close to him don t go.. but to me... is more than just that.. he is my brother....my brother in christ....
i leave my workplace at 7... make my way to Choa Chu Kang.. where his body was laid there... sitting infront of the coffin... hearing sharings from brothers and sisters... sang his favourite songs... tears flow like unattended tap....rows by rows paying their last respects.. when it came to my turn... my heart sank deeply... holding back my tears firmly... taking a close look at him... the skinny body the heavy make-up... and a white formal suit... walking away back to my seat... i can t hold back any longer... tears kept rolling down.... i kept thinking... why .. why.... why him... why... just why....
.... Sunday... went to church...
after church we went for lunch.... night came... my parents and i made our way there.. fetched Pam and her mum... and uncle Wee Keong... went there... when is time to pay our last respects again... tears just kept rolling down... holding back my tears... went back to seat... tears kept coming down.. again and again... familiar figure walking towards me... is mum...i hugged her tightly.. cried even more..i just wanted to tell her... mummy.. David really go le... David really go le.. i'm gonna miss him... but i just can t say... *u try crying and talking at the same time*.. my mood just wasn t right... at the end... send Marilyn Gwen Vic Pam and her mum back.. Marilyn was realy unstable... she cried so hard that i think her head almost explode... at that point of time.. her head must be very painful... she shiver... she was really unstable at that time... she can t walk properly... David wrote cards for her.... encourages her always... just like how best friends are....
David always think about others.. never for himself.... that is just him....
Monday... went to school... felt so burdened... i wish to see him again.... his body gonna be burned... that burning flame.... kept looking at my watch... minutes by minutes... the last service end... my heart sank further down... forcing myself to do other things... not to think about it.... not to let my emotion take control... finally..Fiona called... is over..David really go this time.....
Bro.. i know right now you are dancing with God happily.. without tubes.. without needles.. without pains... just healthy..... Bro.. good job...I love you...
Thursday, October 25, 2007
went to Hong Kong cafe..
is at if we are having breadfast when is like 3 plus o clock..
Joyce with her Bread
Face
Yuan Yang...taste the best...so far.. YaKun is a nono for me 
Widya
Sinling
Tizbe
Licia
my test paper
yea yea (hey hey) i just can t do
Oli nuen Super Junior imida.. o a yo...
Bought from Cine.. Joyce and Licia kept insisting that i can communicate with the salesgirl..though i speak alien languages infront of them.. but.. let me brush up my Korean before speaking properly lah... ha..
Finally.. sorted out groups and my group members consists Christine, Joyce Licia and me...
actually it suppose to have two other members.. but.both of them can t seems to make up their mind.. seriously.. is really very tedious to keep chasing them for an answer...because i assume.. they really can t make up their mind therefore we decided to just have 4...
well.. today i guess .. is a great day because we got some talk in somewhere near Plaza Singapura..o yes.. before this we have some test... ha... honestly.. i just didn t really want to do.. ok.. not i didn t wan t to do.. but is just that .. heh i didn t study much.. i think.. still in my holidays mood...
didn t have dinner with Addis and the rest... my eyes.. no... my right eye... i don t know.. is red... one part of my right eye is red.. i don t know why.. that guy did some test on my eye.. he say is not servere yet...so ya.. got to let my eyes rest.. don t want to be blind...
yesterday..went to visit David... well.. just really proud of myself.. i didn t shed tears... i was fully prepared that he will not look the same as before... when i look straight into his eyes.. i don t know... really shocked... utterly shocked... skinny...definitely lighter than me... weak.. really weak.. but... the look on his eyes.. wants to fight on... though aches daily .. minor flu cough worsen his condition...can t have proper meals.. and... he knows his days are numbered...The Spirit is Willing.. The Body is Weak....
*sign*..
Monday, October 22, 2007
Donghae.... ahhh....
China boy... hangeng
Olinuien SuperJunior imida oaeyo !!!
2nd week of school .... sorting group members is not easy... sometime.. i just don t wish to go back school...is so tiring....gossips, looking good infront of others...agree things which are untrue... time do pass pretty quick... today spend time with Peiling jie jie... tomorrow after school work... wednesday will visit David... David.. you must stay strong.. although i can never ever understand the degree or the amount of pains you are going through... but hang on there... 
Sunday, October 21, 2007
After months.... today we finally have our christian dates...
Tingyu...
Tingyu and Ivan Oppa.. cUteo..
Shawn and Pamala
The sisters... Veron Pam and Me
Veron and Ivan
Me and Tingyu
Veron some lightweight Pink flower... Pam Holland Flower and Sharon Asian all time Favourite Sunflower
Tingyu Ivan and Shawn... ahhh
Me and Tingyu
Cards game
Veron gave me...
Flying Kites... under the hot sun... Pam and Shawn
All their kites seems so stable.. haha.. but i let my kite have that freedom haha.. *stuck on the tree*
Enjoying.. haha
Nice huh
Enjoying the breeze under the shade....
Saturday, October 20, 2007
BAHU ANGEL
Friday....after much discussion... went to Licia house after school... see BaHu Angel... wa... you have no idea... she is so fat and big now.. compare to the pass.. when she is still BaBy... haha... this fatty BaHu too fat till can t roll over... haha.. coming towards my face ... like as if wanting to bite my face off.. haha.. well.. can t blame.. i just got the "bite my face please" face.. ha... when she run is like some bunny hopping around... after this.. went back home.. rest awhile went to church to sit in Hyein bible study.. haha..it was fun.. haha
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Mr Hari.. he is so funny... 
Yesterday service was delicated to our brother David... really miss him... though he can t come to church because he is too weak and also if anyone is sick... he will be in great danger... but.. because of the cable thing.. he is able to watch our service LIVE... ha... yesterday service was different... so different... everything seems the same... but the services is specially delicated just for David... every sharings is from the bottom of the heart... that is what pure friendships are all about... i am truly inspired from him so much... HE have already impacted everyone in church... tears just can t stop flowing down from our delicate cheeks... tissue packets sounds are all over my surroundings...great comfort from the wramth of each brothers and sisters... our struggles seems so tiny compare to David cancer... the pains that he have to go through every single day... not sleeping on a comfortable bed... always having needles on his skin... not having to eat proper meals...
but.. i am really glad that he is my brother in christ.. to be inspired from him... to know that my struggles are just nothing compared to his.... i am grateful for everything... thank you..
Jin San and Sang Woo... so sweet eating donuts
OakLeong love heyin ...../Sharon love her....
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2nd week of school .... sorting group members is not easy... sometime.. i just don t wish to go back school...is so tiring....gossips, looking good infront of others...agree things which are untrue...