Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Some Ultra Random Pictures totally don t make sense to my post....
DAVID- My Beloved (in Hebrews)
I thought Saturday morning was just my usual day... waking up... getting ready for work... but.. it wasn t the same for this Saturday...morning message do pissed me off sometime.. but not this time... i checked my phone.. and it was Peiling jie jie...God bring David to heaven... away from needles.. away from aches.. away from tears of loved ones... away for temptations to give up.. away from not eating a proper meal.. away from coughing so badly.. away from not able to speak in full sentences...everything feels weird... felt burdened... my manager ask me are you close to him.. if you are not.. better don t go...
i seriously don t understand what are they actually meant..to them.. if you not close to him don t go.. but to me... is more than just that.. he is my brother....my brother in christ....
i leave my workplace at 7... make my way to Choa Chu Kang.. where his body was laid there... sitting infront of the coffin... hearing sharings from brothers and sisters... sang his favourite songs... tears flow like unattended tap....rows by rows paying their last respects.. when it came to my turn... my heart sank deeply... holding back my tears firmly... taking a close look at him... the skinny body the heavy make-up... and a white formal suit... walking away back to my seat... i can t hold back any longer... tears kept rolling down.... i kept thinking... why .. why.... why him... why... just why....
.... Sunday... went to church...
after church we went for lunch.... night came... my parents and i made our way there.. fetched Pam and her mum... and uncle Wee Keong... went there... when is time to pay our last respects again... tears just kept rolling down... holding back my tears... went back to seat... tears kept coming down.. again and again... familiar figure walking towards me... is mum...i hugged her tightly.. cried even more..i just wanted to tell her... mummy.. David really go le... David really go le.. i'm gonna miss him... but i just can t say... *u try crying and talking at the same time*.. my mood just wasn t right... at the end... send Marilyn Gwen Vic Pam and her mum back.. Marilyn was realy unstable... she cried so hard that i think her head almost explode... at that point of time.. her head must be very painful... she shiver... she was really unstable at that time... she can t walk properly... David wrote cards for her.... encourages her always... just like how best friends are....
David always think about others.. never for himself.... that is just him....
Monday... went to school... felt so burdened... i wish to see him again.... his body gonna be burned... that burning flame.... kept looking at my watch... minutes by minutes... the last service end... my heart sank further down... forcing myself to do other things... not to think about it.... not to let my emotion take control... finally..Fiona called... is over..David really go this time.....
Bro.. i know right now you are dancing with God happily.. without tubes.. without needles.. without pains... just healthy..... Bro.. good job...I love you...
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